Solitude
Solitude (Poem)
On darkened shores abandoned there lies a wooden boat
Never truly known
Never truly felt
Nor ever loved for the purpose it was built
And yet
Without reason
It waits for Her to take its oars in hand
Though it knows only the black horizon engulfed by clouds of sorrow
Salty drops form an ocean
The only sign time moves on
A motionless vessel, a lifeless wreck
It needs no anchor
Banished to cold, unremitting sands of a beach long forgotten
Its dry planks moved only by tides of sadness
Upon shipwrecked sands it waits
To feel her touch
Wishing the sands of time could somehow let her see where this boat could take Her
But the hourglass is not what it once was; Time has taken its toll
Sands of hope have withered to sands of acceptance
No longer counting down, awaiting Her arrival
They slip through tiny cracks in the glass
Falling endlessly to the shore below
Lost sands without a purpose
Joining the lonely grains
too numerous
to count
A graveyard of attempts gone unembraced.
- A. J. Darkholme
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Solitude (Lyrics)
[Intro]
Solitude...
It's only me
I'm craving you
But you don't see
What we could be
What we could have
Apart's not whole
It's barely half…
[Verse 1]
Beneath black skies
There is no prize
For waiting 'round
With salty eyes
And yet I see your lust arise
As you seek out the other guys
Who take you out,
Dressed in disguise
While I stand by,
Both brave and wise
Wond'ring why
I'm still surprised
When I catch you
Then wipe your eyes
And listen to you analyze
What went wrong
And why love dies
I wait for you
Through all these tries
To find real love
Though you baptize
Yourself in what they advertise
And so I wait...
And wait...
And sigh...
[Chorus]
There's nowhere I'm chained, yet you hold the key
There's no place I'm tied, but I don't feel free
Let go of my hand
You don't understand
I'm more than some man
And I'm drawn to you, like a moth to a flame
Just leave me to burn... til you feel the same
[Verse 2]
If I was a boat at the end of your dock
You'd jump in the water to flirt with the croc
If I saw you drowning,
And outstretched my oar
You'd try to lock eyes
With a lifeguard at shore
If there came a storm,
And we knew we would die
You'd pull out your phone
To text men goodbye
Can you please tell me why?
I feel like a fly
Who's lost his wings, his legs, and eyes
[Chorus]
There's nowhere I'm chained, yet you hold the key
There's no place I'm tied, but I don't feel free
Let go of my hand
You don't understand
I'm more than some man
And I'm drawn to you, like a moth to a flame
Just leave me to burn... til you feel the same
[Verse 3]
It's not like I'm empty
Or desperate or gross
Girls by the masses,
They want to get close
I push them away
I only want you
Did you enter my life
To only pass-through?
[Bridge]
Do I want you because we don't stand a chance?
Am I blind as a bat seeing love at first glance?
Could a future be real,
Or just in my mind?
Is it pain that I crave to treat me so kind?
A love undeserved,
Yet strived for the same
Like Cupid took aim and then hit the door frame
An hourglass shattered
Sands set astray
If I stay, tell me anything at all I could say
[Breakdown]
Maybe it's time I faded from sight
An amnesiac's memory
A flickering light.
[Final Chorus]
I know I should go... I'll move on today.
I know you're not mine to love or betray
Let go of my hand
You don't understand
I'm starting to feel like I'm less than a man
So if I'm a moth... I'll just flutter away...
And leave you behind...
Til you call my name...